Let’s talk about being an Introvert!
With zero motivation to write this, we are back with a new episode on introverts!
I never get tired of talking about myself, which makes this topic very much interesting( for me ). I have been calling myself an introvert for the past three years. Not that I was an extrovert back then, just the thing that I did not need an adjective to introduce myself in school. So, how was it, being an introvert in school? To be honest it did not matter. I studied in the same school for seven years and belonging to the groups called “toppers,” I was quite popular in school. I was pretty much visible in school. What were the advantages and disadvantages of being an introvert in school? Advantage- I saved myself from being involved in a lot of bullshit. Disadvantage- I could have been more active in extracurricular activities. Did I face any difficulty in making friends? Not really. I mean, of course, it wasn’t that “ Will you be my friend type of friendship?” but a kind of understanding that grew stronger with time.
I did realize something in my later school years people thought of me as a “rude” person ( FYI, I was/am a very nice person, at least I think I was/am ) because they never received a response that they would expect from a normal human being. I mean, I was not the type of person you would like to discuss your love life with unless we were pretty close. That was all about my introverted life in school.
Now, coming to my college life. I did change a lot after coming to college. If you know the “school me,” then you don’t know me at all right now. It’s like we are two completely different personalities, and this the reason why my school and I friends grew apart since they weren’t a part of this change. I get messages from my classmates, and the first question they ask is, “ Do you remember me?” C’mon, how do you forget someone in two years when you studied with them for seven years? And the second message goes like this “You’re still the same. Quiet and shy.” First of all, how in the freaking hell do you know that I am still the same? Secondly, if I do not talk to you, that doesn’t mean I’m quiet or shy. Well, that’s just me irritated at the kind of dm’s I get.
In school, I was getting all the attention I needed, being good at studies. But now, I was literally surrounded by toppers from all around the country and people who were good at everything. Studying does help you in a way but you have to come out of your bubble to cope with this competition and to discover yourself. I know it sounds philosophical and stuff, but it is true. College is the right time to get yourself involved in bullshit, which I (kind of) missed being an introvert. Again, even in college, I did not face any difficulties in making friends. I guess I have been fortunate in that department. Apart from that, there weren’t any major drawbacks, just a few things here and there. I participated in events, enjoyed myself to an extent, tried to break my bubble and, life was good.
Let’s talk about some qualities that introverts possess (a.k.a. let’s stereotype introverts!). We are good listeners and, we pay attention to whatever is said. We’ll remember all the slightest details of the conversation and, that is one good thing about us. In addition to that, we are great observers (if you know, you know). We can talk to ourselves all day. Everything that I write as my blog is basically a conversation that I have with me on that particular topic. Overthinking is in our blood. I used to be deeply immersed in my thoughts on the way to my coaching, and one day, someone asked me what was I thinking all the time? I remember myself replying, “ I think about my whole day and the things I could have done right.” ( and I’m still so proud of my reply! ) We do love being alone. But again, I love spending time with my friends. Also, if I am close to someone, then I am not an introvert anymore. I can talk non-stop to people I trust. No hesitation, no awkwardness.
Why am I an introvert? Why feel shy and uncomfortable while talking to human beings when we all belong to the same species? Sometimes, I feel like I only chose to be an introvert. It’s not like I cannot talk to people. Yes, I do get awkward, but it’s manageable. I know I have the ability to hold abyssal conversations with strangers on topics I know nothing about. But how often do I do that? Rarely! I guess I am just way too comfortable in my bubble and, I don’t want to come out of my comfort zone ( or maybe just maybe I have lost all my hopes in human beings ).
Well, I thought of adding more to this article, but we will end it here because I am a hopeless case, and I cannot write anymore ( ending it with suspense so, maybe we can have a second episode on this later ).
